Been Conned All Of My Life - Started In Childhood...

by Rosemarie
(Florida USA)

Where do I start? Being raised in a home where my dad was a 20 year man in the army. After divorcing my mom and marrying a psychopath (my opinion) everything was forced on me and my siblings. I grew up looking and searching for love. Went to churches, psychiatrists, psychologists, groups and became a 'student/teacher' of A Course in Miracles for just about 10 years until I decided to closed the book and the people who were influences in my life.

Since reading a lot of the articles here I am understanding what's been happening to me and why I was taken advantage of by just about everyone who ever entered my life.

I gave up family, money, homes, cars, almost my life and my passion for life. If I wrote a book people would be reading it for a year because there's been so many cons in my life.

I am now and have been living in temporary places for 10 years since my son passed away and felt taken advantage of by 'new people'.

I've been on disability for almost 8 years because of physical injuries but if I told the story of the fight against all of the bullshit in my head I've had to fight against, I probably could have been on it for 'mental disabilities'. I didn't and will never give up the fight to enjoy my life without the fears being first priority in my decisions.

It started when I was young and was told by a stepmother that I was dumb, ugly and stupid. I believed it until I started getting the 'help' I needed. Some did help but some just kept taking me back to that place in my mind where I thought it was true.

I started a website last June about the teachings I had gotten from A Course in Miracles since he passed away but just recently added another page about what I thought it was doing to me personally.

Thank you for letting me share. And thank you for this site. It's helping tremendously and I have even more ambition and motivation to continue telling my 'stories' to help others become aware that they are not going crazy.

Sincerely,

Rosemarie